These Voices of Mine by tripfuse (Music and lyrics by Teague Purtell © 2004)

Verse 1
If I thought that I could feel something other than despair
If I thought that I knew what would make it go away
My mind is doing things that I just can't control
This anger and jealousy it's taking its toll

Chorus
Everything's wrong nothing is right
And I can't deny these voices of mine
Seems everything's gone and that's what is real
What is it I feel (chorus 1) I'm losing in the end (chorus 2)

Verse 2
It's not easy for me I'm falling apart
It's not easy to see I'm alone in the dark
I ask in you believe in me
I ask in you girl let me be free
from these chains that bind me to all that I know
Help me to open help me to grow
We are forever mending in an endless circle (2X)
I'm losing in the end

Chorus Solo Chorus

Verse 3
This darkness inside needs to find light
This anger I feel has to subside
I'm worried about things I never worried about before
I'm worried about you just not wanting me anymore
I know that you love me you tell me all the time
I know that I need you I feel it deep inside
But you're asking me to give more than I can give
I want to believe I am stronger than this

Chorus
Everything's wrong nothing is right
And I can't deny these voices of mine
Seems everything's gone and that's what is real
Everything's wrong nothing is right
And I can't deny these voices of mine
Seems everything's gone and that is what's real
Everything's wrong nothing is right
And that is what I feel

Notes..................................................................................

This tune started with the verse chord progression. I wanted something familiar and kinda dark. It was played in 6/8 from the start. It gives it a slightly different feel. The intro and bridge use the same chords as the verse but played in half time (each chord is played twice as long). I used some spread voicing chords to make is sound open and used the volume swells to give it that free no real meter feeling. However there was a click track playing that was of course removed. Both solos are kinda in the vain of Mark Knopfler (Dire Straits and some great solo cds).

The chorus took longer. I couldn't find the chord progression I wanted and I am not certain I ever really did. But the one I went with I can live with. I knew I wanted to change keys for the chorus and to start in a tonal center different than the verses. I also knew I wanted it to remain dark so it had to start with a minor chord.

These were the fastest lyrics written on the cd and probably the deepest for me. I thought I could let you all in on what this is about but I don't think I can just yet. But I will say, I was in a bad place and sat on the floor in the dark (I know the alone in the dark line is cheesy but I really was in the dark.....I struggled with whether to use the line or not). I used the street light shining in through the shades to write. The 3 verses were written almost entirely in a 15 minute bout of frustration and anger. I'm ok now.